Blame it on my stupidness.

 

Yes,blame on me.

 I always thought he will be one of the very best guy friends I have as we really get along each other and how we laugh and tease each other. However, things turn out to be miserable for me. We already cross over the line and I don't know I am so used to his company and presence. Friends of mine told me the ugly truth and how I keep on telling myself maybe he is not what they said. I admit how selfish I was when we spent time together as I felt happy. In the middle, there are a couple of events going on. So,I decided to confront.  His reply was disappointing to me, as he was avoiding. He said we will still be friends. But, I know it won't happen. I really miss his texts,his jokes,his everything. How we tease and disturb each other,eating nice food together. I miss those impromptu hang-out.  I miss how I laugh really hard at his jokes even is from text messages. I don't know how long will I miss but at this time, I really,really wanna go back to when these things happened.
I really miss him and I don't know how.