Every day, every night, I have the urge to text him, chat with him. But I can't do anything about it.
I was scrolling my social media newsfeed and saw him sharing a song. I listened to the song and googled the lyrics. The song was obvioisly for her, not me. But if I am the one who share the song, the song will not be for anyone else except him. After that day, I feel like a part of me is gone and I started to miss uncontrollably.
I will look at dates and suddenly will remember few weeks back, both of us still chatting happily and hanging out. While now both of us is just strangers or worst,worse than strangers.
What if I never send him that long text, what if I never tell him how I feel and my thoughts, will I be happier or more lost?
 Till today, whenever I received a text, I still have a glimpse of hope wishing is him asking how I have been though deep inside of me know, it wouldn't be be him. It never be him. How I wish to have a time machine to rewind back those times even though is just a period; those times at least I was happy. At least we are still talking.