31/01/2015-
The first month of 2015 has past, meaning its been a month we contact each other regardless anything. I still have alot to say to you. The chance of you reading this post is very slim or you won't come across this at all.
Hi.what an awkward hi as we never start our conversation like this before. How's school for you? Is it very different from uol? Managed to make any friends or you are still sitting along at a corner in the lecture hall. How funny when we were so closed and now both of us are not even strangers. I still heard things about you from our mutual friends and all I can reply is "haha" to hide any feelings. So how about you? Tell me how you feel when somebody mention my name in front of you. Do you feel the same as I did? Or do you feel nothing? Nothing at all. Or you only feel something when her name is mentioned?
I still do miss you, honestly. I am so tired from all those days not socialising at all but just keep on thinking about you but I still did. Morning when I woke up and you are the first in my mind. Before I sleep, you are the last in my mind. Going to school and flashbacks occurs. You are the first one i met who gave me things and feelings that nobody doea before.I wanna just erase everything concerning you but my heart and mind fail to do so. You said of course we will be friends still but are we behaving like one? I don't know when I will win the war.The war against memories.
I wonder what will we be like now if I never send that message to you? Will we still as close as ever? When will be the time when we both can sit down and eat together and laugh together. I don't know when or maybe it won't happen. But I hope it will. I lost a friend. A friend who truely understand and bring me laughter. A friend who take care of me and help me. A friend who calm me down whenever I panic. But I don't like leave things hanging down there and pretend nothing happen at all. That's why I sent you that message. I know the consequences of sending you that text is very big and my heart will not heal in months time. Still, I choose to send. if there's a time machine, I would like to rewind back to those times. Those times when me n you were laughing together, talking together , teasing each other, calling each other names. But there's no turning back.
I miss you
I really miss you.
The first month of 2015 has past, meaning its been a month we contact each other regardless anything. I still have alot to say to you. The chance of you reading this post is very slim or you won't come across this at all.
Hi.what an awkward hi as we never start our conversation like this before. How's school for you? Is it very different from uol? Managed to make any friends or you are still sitting along at a corner in the lecture hall. How funny when we were so closed and now both of us are not even strangers. I still heard things about you from our mutual friends and all I can reply is "haha" to hide any feelings. So how about you? Tell me how you feel when somebody mention my name in front of you. Do you feel the same as I did? Or do you feel nothing? Nothing at all. Or you only feel something when her name is mentioned?
I still do miss you, honestly. I am so tired from all those days not socialising at all but just keep on thinking about you but I still did. Morning when I woke up and you are the first in my mind. Before I sleep, you are the last in my mind. Going to school and flashbacks occurs. You are the first one i met who gave me things and feelings that nobody doea before.I wanna just erase everything concerning you but my heart and mind fail to do so. You said of course we will be friends still but are we behaving like one? I don't know when I will win the war.The war against memories.
I wonder what will we be like now if I never send that message to you? Will we still as close as ever? When will be the time when we both can sit down and eat together and laugh together. I don't know when or maybe it won't happen. But I hope it will. I lost a friend. A friend who truely understand and bring me laughter. A friend who take care of me and help me. A friend who calm me down whenever I panic. But I don't like leave things hanging down there and pretend nothing happen at all. That's why I sent you that message. I know the consequences of sending you that text is very big and my heart will not heal in months time. Still, I choose to send. if there's a time machine, I would like to rewind back to those times. Those times when me n you were laughing together, talking together , teasing each other, calling each other names. But there's no turning back.
I miss you
I really miss you.
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